I have always been individualistic, both in my thoughts and words. I'm not exaggerating when I say that I often shun everyone鈥攆amily and friends alike鈥攚henever I don't feel like socializing. Social interactions exhaust me, especially because I feel obligated to maintain a happy demeanor and avoid being a downer in the presence of others.
I get frustrated when classmates can't go to the bathroom without company or when female friends feel they can't live without a man. I despise stereotypes and the saying "birds of a feather flock together." Each person is unique, and I firmly believe that everyone can decide and survive on their own. It's possible to engage in transactions without reacting to whatever or whoever crosses our path. I prefer avoiding petty talk and building friendships.
Ironically, at 30, I find myself constantly surrounded by people, both young and old, almost 24/7. Suddenly, everything has become personal and relational. My room has become a hangout spot for Thaniel, Bea, and Annie; they're my cousins.
*** Who would have predicted that I鈥檇 be able to keep up with this? Haha.
I find it incredible how I am living the opposite of how I once felt about life and relationships with people, and I am so thankful for it. The change has been for my own good.
Why do I feel like I'm living my life backward? Haha. I was so burdened when I was younger and now feel more relaxed as I grow older. Turning thirty feels like a significant milestone for me 馃き.
Adulting is still tough, but maybe because I faced more challenges before, I can now appreciate and find some peace in my current situation.
A bit of not-so-advice: Hang on, whatever you're going through; you'll get used to it and eventually find yourself able to breathe even underwater.
Posted similar idea in my socmed account; just edited this better.
Photo's me and mine.
Thank you for reading this far.
