Firstly, I want to apologise for how long it has taken me to respond to you. Secondly - THANK YOU! Your openness in expression is admirable and I appreciate it greatly! I am so sorry about your husband AND your mom... Life is brutal.

You are right, blame is something I have had an internal war about for a long time but it gets you absolutely NOWHERE!!!! You simply HAVE to find a space in which you can silence it all!

Those moments of frustrations, anger - OH can I relate. I recall, my mom throwing all the pillows on her bed at me in sheer desperate anger for the pain she was in!!!! I felt like I was failing, and all I wanted was to get her into a bath, so I could make her feel better... bath her, massage her feet, her back. I never retaliated, but I did walk out and close the door. I came back a little while after, and she apologised for being difficult. She bathed, and I did all of the above.

Let's leave that behind and focus on all the wonderful memories.

Yes, let's! :)

Thank you for your transparency love!

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