Recently I feel very depressed. I longed to be alone and write so that I can give full vent to my gloomy mind.
I have been married for 6 years. It was a nice time at the three years, because it was just two of us. I cannot remember if we had any silent treatment. But everything changed after we had a baby, and had mortgage in the same year.
Raising a baby is a painful but joyful process. I spent all of my time taking care of the baby until he was 6 months old. Then I went back to work and his grandma looked after him. Not until then I realized the change of my husband's attitude. He does not care about me any more. Heart is broken.
However, the collapse is a silent. I still look normal, laugh as usual, play as usual, socialize as usual. But if is a surface calm. In fact, the bad things have accumulated to its peak. Crying when alone in the mid-night. I do not know how long the marriage can last...