That night I sat pensive in my room while recalling in my past, where I had lost the most precious person in my life, mama. First mama sagat love me. Now, no more people love me like mama. Often I shout to my mom asking me to go home. But, over time I realize that mama will never appear in front of me again.
I always ask in my heart when I find someone who can make me smile like the old one where mama still exist. Ever since my mother died, I never again smiled and laughed as much as ever where mama tickled me. Then I said in my heart 'mama I miss you so much, I missed your tender caress, your warm embrace, and the voice that always called my name, the voice that once yelled at me, I longed for your beautiful face, all the things you made and that you do as long as you are on earth and there is still much I miss from all that mama have it. Mama, are you happy in the wild there.
I can not afford to live this life alone, I am always lonely, I have no one to mention all the sadness and love that I passed. I can only confide in my friend who is always around me who is never far away from me, wherever I am he is always there, my 'my day book' is where all my places pour out all the flavors that are in my heart. Though I've poured all my love and grief into my diary, but it's just a little less but I'm happy enough.
After all this time I lived in this way I finally found someone who could make me turn away from my old world, he named Irvan. Irvan is a nice man, gentle, full of affection, attention and he is also handsome. With everything he possesses that can make me turn away from my habits and from the dark past.
We live this life happily, it's been two years more we live together until one day Irvan had a very tragic accident and soon he left me forever I can only cry and cry. Since that incident I returned to my old world writing my diary. I can only remember Irvan in this little heart of mine and no one will ever get rid of my memories and dawin
