Hey steemers
so this is a silly post I'm doing, I hope you enjoy it and leave me a comment.
I've been so f*cking sad lately
I see through the thousands of photos I save from the past (some of them are good and I used to think they were trashy) and I see a life that is never coming back, now adays my life seems to be so different, I feel empty, I feel not artistic anymore, I feel so dull, tired, boring, nothing seems to happen in my life after uni.
I think this is the time to talk about my sadness and how lonely I feel these days, back in my old life I used to enjoy sadness because it used to make me feel inspired, I was full of courage, I was full of emotions and I could enjoy all of them, but now, dear friends of mine reading this, I feel like I'm always in the middle, never too high in feelings never too low, never more too high in love and never too careless about it, and this sandess I've been feeling could be finally so high to inspire my soul.
These are two photos my best friend from uni made of me, when i was full of life, when i used to rock my haircut and those glasses, I don't know what i was thinking, but I'm sure I used to not overthink much my life, my decisions, and my dreams seemed to be closer and clear (I actually used to smoke one or two cigarettes by day and I can barely touch one per month now).
Guys, thanks for reading all this shit, I want to say I don't think I used to be a better person by then, it's not about that it's just that I've been so sad, I'm sure I could talk about it with friends or family, but they are always so busy, and this is the first time in my life that I feel like writing is more therapeutic and also I feel like no one at home would understand me.
Sorry if my english is trashy.
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