Hi, guys!
My dkrdom continues. My stomach is still giving me a ton of symptoms, and there's no way I can get over them, so tomorrow or the day after I have to go back to the doctor and figure out what to do next. I really wish they'd operate right now and this whole nightmare would end, because I just can't stand all this crap anymore; I'm sick to death of it. It's a never-ending nightmare. It would be nice if I could at least lose weight despite these constant problems, but so far, even that hasn't happened.
And work hasn't been canceled, so I'm constantly having to do something, but I simply don't have the energy for it all, so it's a mess. I also need to film at least a few videos today, otherwise the blog will start stalling again, and I can't afford that. There are videos I absolutely need to film urgently, so I need to focus and get them done.
If it's the publishers, I'm actually upset with them right now, because it's really strange that after everything I've done for them, they still treat me so superficially. I'd like more attention. Never mind, I'll try writing again tomorrow, and if they don't respond, I'll add them to my personal blacklist. And we'll see how they behave when my blog grows even more. Ugh, they're just like me. There's no point in trying so hard if nothing's working.
Actually, I'm really tired of all this fruitless effort. I put so much effort into filming, into making the content more interesting, but nothing seems to be working. I don't know what else to do.
But I still don't plan on giving up, because I've already come a long way. We'll keep going.
Have a great day, everyone!
