My love life has been pretty interesting. It鈥檚 been fun, complicated, sad, emotional, sweet and painful. I鈥檝e met some people who鈥檝e shown me different kind of emotions and out of all these people, I met some who gave me something greater. She gave me this sweet feeling that I鈥檝e only felt in a long time. I can鈥檛 explain how I feel about her. Am I lust after her, obsessed with her or in love with her. Since I鈥檝e started loving, I have never been this confused before. She makes me feel like a baby who yearns for much love. Even after all this, I can鈥檛 put a name to the kind of relationship I want with her. Is this just a fling or what? I don鈥檛 even know. If I鈥檓 to be asked what I want or need from her, it鈥檒l be for us to be together and if possible stay loved with each other forever.
What do I want from love? This would be to have a partner who I understand and who also understands me. Someone I can comfortably express myself to without lying or hiding somethings from her. Someone that knows when I鈥檓 been truthful and also when I鈥檓 lying. Someone I can relay with. A person who sees me with and still wants to be with me without even looking at some complicated things in me be it my health, finance or personal issues. This girl seems to be the person I鈥檓 looking for but, she finds it hard to trust me with her heart. She says that she鈥檇 hurt me but I feel like I鈥檓 already hurting just by her lack of trust for me. I don鈥檛 blame her for that because, it鈥檚 very hard to trust someone with something as precious as your heart. Sometimes I wonder if, I鈥檓 over rushing things with her or am I forcing her to do something against her wish but I feel like I鈥檓 doing something wrong here.
I don鈥檛 want to make a mistake by loving the wrong person and getting hurt but, how do I find the right person if I don鈥檛 risk my heart by loving the people who acts like they love me? what does it mean for someone to be the reason behind your every smile if they can鈥檛 love you? I鈥檝e pondered so much on this and I keep getting one answer which is, that person is the only person who can love you genuinely. SOPHIE HENRY, I might be running faster than my shadows just to get something so precious to you but, I want to say I鈥檓 head over heels for you and I鈥檓 not letting go of what I feel for you because this feeling is precious to me just the way you鈥檙e to me. PLEASE, allow me to build my world around you because, I LOVE YOU MUCH MORE THAN YOU CAN EVER IMAGINE.
