Well, one step forward, another step back. Life can be confusing and frustrating at times. Yesterday I allowed myself a little bit of time just for me. The curves of this bridge, the thin slats of wood and unusual metalwork had such a calming and peaceful effect on me. It was morning but overcast and the muted hues of the day refrained from being overwhelming.
Walking is as close as I get to meditation. Not just because I passed one guy sitting on a park bench with his eyes closed peacefully meditating although I noticed a small pang of jealousy tapping on my consciousness. But I let it go and felt happy for him, and momentarily for myself walking by.