I can't remember when was the last time I feel so much refreshed that I forget about my deadlines and all.
Maybe a long time ago. I need a break, my heart is screaming inside but my life has not made any scope to escape.
Yesterday, I was chatting with one of my school friends. Now he lives in the USA, living there for more than 5 years. He didn't come to his home country since then. We were talking about our good old days, how responsibility-free we were, and how life changed over the year.
I have no regrets about taking responsibility. But the stress, anxiety that comes with it is enormous. It's not all about the responsibilities actually. It's more about how I'm living my life.
I get only 4-6 days off in a month. I usually don't take any leave coz this makes my work stressed more. So that means getting occupied by things for the whole week except one day. And on that day I also have to receive a good amount of phone calls and solve problems. Moreover, the traffic makes like worse.
I lose the work-life balance and it feels worse.
Days will never be the same anymore. But that's okay. I know that life will change gradually, I have to adapt and find ways to make it better. I don't know why I don't find the inspiration to change it. My lazy a*s doesn't let me get out of this coop.
Maybe from tomorrow or I will also delay and say the same tomorrow...I know I have to finish the race anyway.