Is this nonfiction or only fiction? Anyway, I hope you've already moved on with that, and don't worry; I understand how to make it regretful and disappoint your parents. Like yours, I'm also afraid to step out of my comfort zone, but it doesn't mean that our different path is already classified as a comfort zone. My parents forced me to work in Aus after graduation, but I felt like no. Opportunities from the outside don't mean that you can fully adjust!