You know of life is you are taught what you wanted once you no longer need it you get opportunities once you're ready once you're already ready you learn much faster than once you're already skilled.
You connect many things with others once you already love the more you have the point you get the biggest competitive advantage is to have time to think deeply learn widely enough confidence to ignore the noise of society enough patient to go to with your long-term vision never be embarrassed by the time it took you to reach your goal.
Your struggles goes are what makes you an interesting person to be. No one is more boring than someone who was handed everything on a silver platter. She's bad. Be proud of what you have. You have to overcome to get where you are.