Reflecting on how we spend our day is something that we often forget to do. We forget to do so because we don’t even remember the things we do, and we don’t want to. Lately, I’m beginning to want to reflect on how my day went more than I usually do, and that’s because I have been able to let go of some things that I was holding onto. It was hard, but the moment I started letting them go, the more relaxed and at peace I felt with myself. I still feel like I might regret my choices, but I’m ready to take responsibility for that when the time comes.
This past week was a rough week for me. I had a few bumps here and there that at some point I wished my life didn’t have to take this path. As it stands, I’m learning to accept the reality of the fact that I only have my creator to truly depend on. I can barely even trust myself, but I try to because if I don’t, trusting God won’t be genuine. I have changed so many things in the past couple of months that normally would cause me to break down and cry, but interestingly, I haven’t even given myself that option to.
Before now, I’ll be in my bed crying and wishing so much for things to happen differently, but now, I just smile, pray, and go about my life. It’s almost like I have grown immunity to what’s happening, but that’s not true. I still feel some pains; I still worry about how life will be without certain things and people, but I’m still holding on just fine. I’m grateful to the people God has placed around me because they have been nothing short of amazing. They are the kind of people that remind me to always do what I believe is right, even when it is not fully accepted by all.
These people love me, not even in words but in action. They always look out for me and make sure I’m doing okay. They don’t feel okay when they know I’m not happy, and they always try their best to make me lighten up. Thinking of this, I just can’t help but be grateful to God. It would have been really hard for me this period if I didn’t have these kind of people around me. Their support is full, and I did little or nothing to earn a place at the table.
As for reflecting on my day, it’s something I want to be more intentional about, and that’s because I want to start understanding how I live my life and how well to make necessary adjustments. I need to know the things I do right in a day, how I did it, and those things that I didn’t do well and why. I believe that keeping track of my daily life will help me achieve so much more than I even expected.
Thank you for reading through. 💜
