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My watch shows the time is 5:30 in the morning, where the teenagers my age are still asleep in their sleep and still having fun in the dream world. While I had to get up to get ready for physical exercise and continued with badminton practice. Badminton sport has been introduced to me by my grandfather since I was sitting in 6th grade until now I'm in high school. Because I have adequate equipment and field, I often practice so that I am directed by my mother to be serious in this field.
"Rana, let's get ready for practice," my mother said.
I quickly changed my clothes and got in the car. My training place is on my grandfather's home page, I will train with Kak War. He is one of the very passionate people in everything, anywhere and anytime. My goal of practice from morning is because in 4 weeks I will follow the game in Senayan area. Often I've actually been in matches, but this time of the game will determine whether I can go international or not. I really hope to win the game and I will be sent to China to compete.
The first day of school, all my friends excited about telling their memories during a vacation together to Bali. While my vacation I spent to practice and I was very sad because at that time my departure for the holidays with my friends was forced to be canceled because they have to practice for the match.
Ran, what a shame you did not come to Bali yesterday because really we all day playing on the beach and the photos there. "Said one of my friends. When he says that, I can only reply with a smile. Sweet smile with a bitter lie behind it.
On the first day of school I was forced to go home first because I have another exercise with Kak War, my school is very supportive of my badminton activities so I can easily to permit not go to school or go home first. Before I went home, there was a conversation that my friends were going to the mall after school and again I could not join them.
My days at school became more fun because I found someone who could take me for what I am and support every step I take. Reno is his name, he is probably my first love. He is the one who often motivates me to keep stepping forward and not give up with badminton. However, I was so busy with badminton I often feel bad about him because I rarely to walk with him or spend time alone with him. I feel that men as well as Reno can still find a figure better than me.
"I think we're OK. Ren. I love you, I feel I'm too busy with others until the attention and support you give me is not worth what I give you." I said.
But Reno has always been a mysterious and unpredictable person. Sometimes my words above make us a fight and tenuous because he does not like if I think like that. At other times, Reno also made my speech above a joke that certainly did not make me laugh but instead made me angry with her. As often as there is an argument between us, still only Reno can make me smile. Smile sincerely without any lies at all.
The effort and time spent on the exercise was not in vain. I won the game and will be dispatched to China the day after tomorrow. My whole family and including Reno and my best friend Killa who watched my game were very happy and proud of my achievement. I am so grateful to always have support from them.
"Rana survived yes I'm very proud of you," said Reno and Killa who have faithfully supported me.
I lost the words when they said that. Because if there is no support from them, I can not possibly get this far. I immediately hugged them both and deeply grateful to have them both in my life.
Then I remembered that if I did not win this game I would get a 'holiday' which meant no training schedule. Which meant I could spend a lot of time walking with Reno and my other friends. I was thinking twice, but I still decided to go to China because entry into the international level is my desire from the first. Reno will certainly be waiting for me to go home, and I will certainly make him even more proud of me.
When my departure time has arrived, I depart with the other two winners to compete with the name of Indonesia. While there it is not permissible to carry a telephone or other means of communication, as it is a rule to follow. There I met with many children from other countries such as Singapore, Korea, Thailand, and others. In addition to acquaintances I also do various activities with them such as swimming, playing table tennis, playing cards to learn the language of each other. This is the most exciting thing and I can not wait to tell him to Reno.
A week has passed, it's time I go back to Indonesia. I did not come home empty-handed, but I brought the silver medal I got from my first international game. My parents picked me up at the airport, but why were their faces so limp?
"Mother and father? How's limp? Do not ya happy his son came home with silver medals? "I asked in confusion. I feel they are hiding something.
"Mmm .. Rana is patient .." said Father.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"Reno ... He's calm down there .." Mother answered.
"Where? Where is bu reno? Where is it? "I asked again.
"Reno's dead." Mom said.
Tears continued to fall during the journey to Reno's home.
"Why did not Mom and Dad get news through Kak War? Kak War do not bring the phone. "I say with a sob.
But I did not get an answer from Mom and Dad.
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Arriving at home Reno, Killa told me that Reno has long suffered heart disease. It was his illness that caused his death. I can not say anything anymore, I can only cry, hug Killa and see the body Reno who died in a state of smile.
"Is this what I really want? Losing my teenage years because I'm already tied up, already committed to badminton? Can I do this without Reno? "These questions then crossed my mind and made me think deeper.
This incident caused deep sadness for me, Reno is the first person I love and now he is gone forever. My condition was declining and my faith to go on being an athlete was shaken and I decided to quit badminton.
"Rana, whatever your decision you and Dad will stay support because we can not force you anyway. So far we have only directed you, not at all forcing you but it is unfortunate if you do not finish what you started, "said Mom and Dad.
"Thank you Mom and Dad, but I'm still too sad for all this. My decision is over. "I replied.
"Should not you think about it carefully?" She asked.
"No Mom, enough I do not want to talk about it anymore," replied the Rana firmly.
years later, I'm sorry. I should have thought deeper and matured before deciding on the choices I took. Reno is just a sweet memory of my story, I have given up my future and it's all just because of one sadness. Now I can accept that Reno is gone and my regrets peaked when my badminton friends who once qualified for the game in China now go to a top university and get a scholarship because they are professional athletes. It is a decision forever. I will regret forever.1. item.............