That I was being cheated and played with, for more than two years by the love of my life. Even after being through this trauma, I gave her another chance after she cried for it. And again, I was left traumatized.
No one knows about this except me an her. She has moved on and I am still trying to get out of it.
Long Story cut short:
I was into a relationship for the past five years, when I suddenly discovered the fact that she was playing games behind my back.
Yes, for the last few years, she started behaving differently but infidelity was something that she could have never endorsed. I never expected that from someone like who she was. Okay, she told me several times that she will always choose her parent over me, because her parents were against love-marriage stuff. But still I was okay with it. I wanted to be with her and fight till her parents don’t give up.
She was double-dating for the past three years and she played the stroke so well that I never got to know about this. A little before I discovered this fact, the other guy dumped her for some reason. And now, there was again a drastic change in her towards me. I never suspected anything maybe because of my blind faith on her.
But then a few months later I got to know the whole scene. I literally fell down on the floor. I was numb for I don’t know how many hours. Yes, I cried , a lot. I kept crying for hours. I thanked God that my family was out of town during that revelation, or else things could have gone worse for her.
I immediately isolated myself from her and blocked her everywhere. I was very angry and I knew I would do something that I would regret for the rest of my life. This is why I isolated myself from her. I just wanted it all to settle down.
A few months, it was my birthday and I was better than before. Thanks to Quora. She called in to wish me, I thanked her and asked her what was the reason. I simply asked her “Why did you do this ? What led you ?” . She denied at first. Then I proved her with facts and she said it was mere stupidity on her part. She said she just got carried away.
I was like , “Come on, you can get carried away for months, or maybe an year. But three years you kept playing around with my feelings. And even in the end it was he who dumped you not you, so basically you still didn’t realize your mistake.”
She asked for forgiveness. I still remember her words, “Please give me another chance. I will prove myself” Foolish as I was, I didn’t think for a second and my heart melted at the first sight of her tears. Gave her another chance.
A few months into a fresh start, she started seeing other guys and told me her parents will never agree for this love marriage. I always pressed her in the past whenever she said these words about parents. I always gave her that confidence that we will always find a way out of it. I was always very optimistic about this because there were no issues with the religion,caste creed etc. and our families knew each other well. But then, this time I din’t press her. For good. It was because I knew I had to draw a line. just cannot take anything and everything. I already invested seven years and had lost a lot in life. I didn’t want this cloud of negativity to hover around me anymore.
I decided to opt out of it forever. And to my surprise she was okay with it. Only with requests that I will never disclose this infidelity stuff to anyone, her friends/family or my friends/family. And the reason was her good image was the most important for her. She never wanted her parents to face any trouble because of her.
I gave her that all what she wanted. I simply moved out in silence.
Till today, no one know about this except me and her. Even if friends force me to reveal the reason I just avoid or at times maybe tell them that she told her parents and they didn’t agree. We tried hard to convince her parents but they didn’t listen so we got separated. I have never told people the real truth and its buried inside me.
Credit
Breathe … Breathe … Breathe
Let GO
→ Present Day:
Time heals. Its been almost a year, I know I am not completely out of it. I have minimized socializing to a great extent. But I am better off this way. I find peace in solitude now. I don’t know how long will it take but I am getting better each day.