helps me trigger something just enough to not get sucked into too bad but unlock the feelings to get things moving again, either by writing or creating things.

Exactly this! Like we feel sad temporarily but actually feels better afterwards. Sometimes I have episodes when I just cry and let it all out cos I got triggered too much but realized it's good for me. This doesn't work for everyone and other people need to take therapy and medications but it is okay. I don't like people who make these people feel bad cos they think it's a "shortcut" and you just have to go through your day-to-day life without them but ugh living shouldn't be a struggle. Whether they think it's a shortcut or not it doesn't matter cos why even prolong your suffering when there are ways to help you manage it you know.

It's good to hear I'm not the only one feeling this. Good to know too that you're aware of it and can prevent some other stuff to happen as well. You're surviving and thriving! :D