Today my lights went out.

My second Beast challenge post is a bit different from what I had in mind yesterday. Where I registered enthusiastically yesterday to complete a SAVAGE BEAST challenge, today I seriously don't know if I should / should continue with it. As the title says, today my lights went out.

What happened?

Like every day I went for a walk with the dogs. Of course ... they need it, and I need it. But today it went a bit differently than normal. I was in the woods when I suddenly got a very strange light feeling in my head and I didn't see it all sharp anymore. With three dogs with me that can be a huge problem so I just wanted to find a place to sit quietly until the dizziness was gone again.

And the next thing I know is that I open my eyes while the dogs are growling around me. People trying to come to me that didn't work because my dogs didn't let anyone come near me.

Nothing serious wrong ...

Well, to make a long story short ... I fainted and was taken to the hospital for an examination. It was found there that I am fortunate to have nothing serious wrong, except that my blood pressure is much too low. No serious indications for this were found. My heart is fine, my condition is good. The mri scan of my head is also fine. Nothing was found on this either. My blood count is fine, vitamins are all good according to the tests that have been done. So the conclusion is: Stress!

I thought I did fine, but my body thinks a little different at the moment ...

And yes ... that may well be the case. I myself thought that I was perfectly in control, and that I dealt with everything that is going on, but my body thinks a little differently about it at the moment. Which means to me so I really have to think about myself. I am busy with many things. I am facing major changes. And I'm incredibly good at 'forgetting' myself. Going beyond my limits, not taking a rest, and sometimes seeing problems that don't have to be there.

So after a hefty warning from my own body, and a day at the hospital where I also received the necessary warnings, I really have to take myself seriously into account. What does that mean for my Beast Challenge?

That means that I am not going to put extra pressure on myself at the moment. I have things going on that I can't stop. And I have to focus on my goal. Focus on myself, while not forgetting to take the necessary rest. What I experienced today was no joke, and I certainly don't want to experience that a second time.

So I wish everyone in the Beast Challenge every success ... and I certainly won't disappear online. No worries about that. But for me there are other things that my focus should go to. And everything at the same time is currently not an option. I keep doing what I used to do ... But I'm not going to force myself.