Hello, my name is Genesis. I found this space thanks to my sister. She is the one who knows English in the family and helps me to understand some things.
She told me that this prompt was right for me because it would allow me to share something I keep in my heart.
Almost four years ago I lost my first baby when she was only a month old. I was in Colombia during that time, and had no family close to me at the time. Only my husband kept me company and suffered by my side.
Unfortunately, my baby was born with a congenital heart disease, and would have required multiple open heart surgeries, just to guarantee her a short life. At one month old, and after going through so much pain, my baby passed away.
Now I understand what it feels like. The loss of a child is the worst thing that can happen to anyone. It is unimaginable, incalculable and deeply heartbreaking. It has been a struggle with myself, to get on with my life after losing her, but I take comfort in knowing that she is in a place where there is no suffering. I must say that this loss has affected the way I see the world, and has made me reflect on my loved ones, how I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I have thought too much about my future, and what I want to offer the world.
Today, almost four years later, I have a newborn baby girl, whom I love and protect with my life. The past experience has reaffirmed to me that as a mother I must take much more care of myself in order to protect my baby. Emma is not the replacement of my previous baby, I would never think so, but I believe that God is giving me a new opportunity to live this great experience of being a mother.
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