Picture is of a metal statue I saw! So now I'm processing all of this life. Oh boy! Just as usual! Changes are happening in our work life, I think allot for the better too, still it's a struggle to know exactly what to do. Working on the roof in the last month, live in life friend has a new job, some work is coming up. Although really I don't feel like working. I'm concentrating, getting my focus on thoughts and art. Wish to be more social too.
So went to the pub for open mic last night, it was alright. Some people actually played!! That was cool until they kept on taking the jacks out of the guitars without turning the sound down, also the inputs crackle. Not good for the speakers. So that kinda pissed me off. Saw some people I knew there, then I saw a friend Chriss she was fun to talk to a bit. The others at the table were being raunchy talking about sex stuff, I don't like that. I'm not like that. This friend went to a birthday party at my other friends place for her 10 year old son. My friend didn't like my other friend talking about raunchy stuff either. So it was nice to talk to someone who agrees with me. I don't like people acting gross, why cannot they just be nice to me and each other?
Some people like me, I hope they can get to know me. I am thinking about being less shy and asking more people to get out for some activity. I want to get out of my house and routine. Not to rely on friends or anything like that. More to progress in some bonds. I'm tending more towards the lady friends lately but not so much the party people unless I can get them away from the scene for something different and perhaps special.
So yea I'm just writing out my thoughts right now. What else can I do? I want to be inspired and creative, always hungered for having some social passions to boost that process. That has been difficult, so I will be easy on myself about it. Been long times under the gun with work, being poor, feeling stressed and anxiety. I want to break out though. I have always been more into the fun, good energy, being a warm person. I think I can make some breakthroughs. Many are depressed, some I can't help, yet I can still encourage some good spirits and hearty laughs. Everyday seems better so looking forward to tomorrow. Yes another adventure to advance myself some more.
I will create my own creative world, still bring others along! Feels like I'm starting a cult, but it would be a fun cult! Lol. I am raring to produce more music, try to add some vocals, not worry about what it will be. Keep experimenting and practicing. Somehow everything seems less distracting and I'm feeling more upbeat. I feel I am feeling more encouraged and some courage. The weather has been overcast, almost kinda dreary, yet there is the mystical fog in the morning. I feel some fall magic in the air even though it is still technically summer here. Alright so now I will go to bed. Dream up some action inspirations in my sleep. Know it's okay to dream about fun bonds and gaining relationships. I'm feeling more open and back to myself. Will keep that going. I want to feel good. I want to have fun. I want to have some good kind of interesting times. Still want to freak out in my own special way. Get political, sock it to the man!
