You don't have enough hate and rage in your heart to actually enjoy firing the gun.

"You don't know how much violence a gun holds."

My uncle was on a SWAT team, and he taught me and my cousins how to field-strip a CZ 75 pistol. waz a little hard 'coz, unlike a glock, you need a special tool, but it was cool, it feelz good.. like you're assembling a model, just heavier... but no firing. My uncle says there's a dangerous wave of adrenaline that will make you instantly crave more (glad that adrenaline didn't hit you) and that's the beginning of it: the rage, the violence, be it for the good or bad.

My uncle's weapons and gear were returned to the department when he died. We've never felt so vulnerable with the absence of them in our house, especially knowing the growing number of crimes in my country.

P.S. The toned bicep caught my attention... badass.