The very first month of this year came with plenty of hopes for me. Some bold plans, some surprises too. I made some fresh prayers too directed by the church, and some personal prayer requests. Like a lot of people who usually make new year resolution and all those things, I also joined them by telling myself that this year is going to be different for me starting from placing and putting more importance on some things like my savings, improving in some areas that I have been drawing back from, and a calmer mind. Some of the things I had planned for happened while life also happened.
At the beginning of this year, I was doing something that I had good plans for to finish this year, but along the way, what I called life happened even though I was already doing it, but before the second quarter of this year, the project stood still again like a water-filled pothole in the middle of my country road.
Though I am not easily impressed by what I see on social media, when I saw the fast rate at which some of my guys were winning, I felt like I was not doing enough like I should have been doing because all my wins seemed to be silent. Trying to keep my mental health intact, giving assistance and a helping hand to those who are in need of my help when I need help myself, and trying to keep things going even though it seems difficult.
I was somewhere between letting go of everything and trying to do my best. But then I was reminded of something very deep: because things decide to happen on time does not mean they will not even happen when the appointment time is right. Because, like what the elders usually say, some dreams will not manifest on time because they need time to grow before I can see effects.
Well, before the year comes to an end, it is still very possible for me to get some goals achieved because Jesus is never tired of doing miracles for his own. I might not have gotten those things that I need, but I can definitely work towards it. I might not be where I want to be today, but one day I will be in a much better place than now. And what I know for sure is that, making meaningful progress in life does not necessarily always need noise.
Some of my plans will definitely roll into the coming year, but to be honest, I do not mind because I am okay with it. For me, life is not a 100-meter race; it is a marathon, and I need to keep moving.
And another thing I learned from this year is how to exercise patience in everything, and I have also learned how to forgive myself because, as a man, those things are very important in my journey. And as the year has few days, today being the 15th of December, I have survived a lot, and I am equally not giving up anytime soon. I am only restrategizing and learning to breathe again.
And another important thing is that I am starting to appreciate how far I have come in life instead of beating myself up for not being further because I will always try again no matter what, and I still believe In what is yet to come.
Thank you for reading.
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