This morning I woke up with an heavy thought in my mind. Few months ago I never believed the world will be in this kind of position but now it is. Now it got me thinking about how life was and how it is now. There are lots of things I took for granted. Below I will highlight them out.
Freedom
When this lockdown started, I wasn't happy but at the same time part of me was. I was tired of all the activities I'm engaged in and even though I'm an introvert, I got tired. Tired of church activities (four times in a week), tired of taking my little brothers to school and picking them in the evening, tired of the pressure from my client so as to meet deadlines, even tired of the visitors I had. So when the lockdown started I was happy that I'll have time to rest little did I know that the lockdown will be this extended. Now I feel like a prisoner even in my own house. Now I know the value of the freedom I had.
Friends
Even though I'm not the type that keep much friends, I ended up having friends around me (even though they aren't close). When I stay too long with friends, I eventually feeling out of place. I'm someone that is used to staying on my own. Now I appreciate the times I spend with those friends. The gist, the pictures we took together, the naughtiness, the laughter, the sharing, the care etc
Outings
Like I said earlier that I was an introvert meaning I don't like to go out often. It surprises me that I miss the outings I went out with my families. Especially the time we went to the zoo, shopping mall, nights when we'll go out and buy street foods. Day before yesterday my little brother was almost crying because he wanted to go to a restaurant and we couldn't.
Church
I'm a chorister in church so I go to church often. Four times in a week. Wednesdays for bible study, Thursdays for Prayer meetings, Saturday for rehearsals and Sunday for service. Most of my friends are from church. What I miss isn't even the people but the fellowship we had together. The singing together, the teachings we learnt together and everything. Before the lockdown, I was already getting tired of going to church often times but now I appreciate the time spent there the more.
Visitors
Now I realizes its the people that cares about you that visits you. I normally don't visit people but I'm blessed to have people that visits me and also my family. The time we spent together were precious and I cherish them more now.
Transactions
As a bag designer and artist, I go out to buy materials, make bags and art and make deliveries by myself. Sometimes it gets really stressful and tiring but now I appreciate those times. Because transactions means profit for me. Now thht everything is still, my business mostly have been still. I can't go out to get materials, even the arts I've made, I can't get them framed yet talkless of delivering them. Now I appreciate the stress of the transactions.
Early morning preparation
As a self employed individual, I have the freedom to start my day anytime I want. But I can't, I start my day really early everyday. I do chores, prepare my little brothers for school, sometimes take them to school and in the evening I'll go to pick them. Same on Sunday, I wake up really early like 5am, do chores and ensure I got to church by 7am. Its not easy waking up in the morning, several morning I feel so reluctant and I pray for a break. Now that I don't get to out, I wake up really late. Because the days I wake up early, I still end up staying in bed because the rest of the house too will still in bed. Like this morning, now that I'm typing, I out to be on my way to church already and it got me missing those early morning preparation.
The joy of picking my little brother from school.
Almost all children love closing hour. My little brothers aren't an exception. Whenever I go to pick them, they always have that smile on their face beneath their tired look. I never know I could miss those smile this much.
This lockdown has thought me a big lesson. To be grateful for every little things that comes my way and never take any for granted.
