Stay strong @jeezle. Life has a way of figuring itself out. Whether we like it or not life has a way of letting you end up exactly where you are supposed to. Just take it one day at a time. In the end nothing but you matter in any ways.... time to think of yourself. Tell the "people" that you love and miss them but you have to find your own way forward. Strongs my friend. Life is real crappy sometimes....