So here I am God. I feel sunk and defeated. I've heard all the words of feel-good / happy / crappy /touchy /feely /running of the mouth things that can be offered up that is supposed to make this all make sense...
...but the truth is that today God, it doesn't make sense. It just sucks and I can't seem to find my way up from what feels like the depths...
the wounded dark...
the pit where the shadows, my shadows haunt me all too readily.
I know I'm in your hands, but in truth I don't feel that way right now. I can't seem to allow the truth of who I am, WHOSE I am, break through to that place deep within where I can trust. I wish I could, but it isn't coming right now.
Help me... life has boiled over...
Help me... it hurts...
Help me... I long to feel your embrace...
Help...
Amen.
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