I am an ex alcoholic, I mostly drank beer and only occasionally hard liquor. 10 years ago I had an epiphany of sorts and figured I'd better stop drinking because of the following:
a- I used to go on 4-5 day binges and then my liver would get kind of hard and start to hurt
b- My nightmares and my hangovers were getting unbelievable.
So I figured I was heading towards a bad end, and on the 31 of December 2005 I had a beer and a glass of wine and then decided I wouldn't drink any more until the next day, and I kept putting that drink off all this time and expect to reach 11 years in December. Do I miss the alcohol? Of course I do, but I also know one beer is enough to get me back on the hook so I don't drink it.
Now I have a high IQ, not genius level but certainly high, when I was drunk I would bet with people on multiplying let's say 234 x 567 and they could use a calculator and I would do it faster in my head. I always won, but now I can't do that, could it be I miss the alcohol or does one just get dumber the older you get, I'm 55 right now.
But the thing that makes me wonder the most is that when I was drunk I would find solutions to many problems, I mean real problems I would see them clearly unfortunately the next day try as I might I couldn't remember what it was. I don't know, maybe I could have solved some really difficult problems but that alcohol sure kept me from doing it, and let's face it, who in the world carries a pen and paper to write down his ideas while he is drinking?
This is an official rant and I know if this has to have happened to other drunks out there, can someone identify with me?
