Pick (Pic) of the week #2

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Here's little Owen mining again. 

He is so free. You can tell in his smile and the way he plays. The greatest sound is it when he says, "I love you daddy," in a quick breathe. 

Owen has been fighting an ugly allergic reaction lately. Thank God we are seeing some improvements. The doctors don't know for sure what he is allergic to. Maybe it's a reaction to a recent cold, or food, or something in the air. I say all this just to remind ourselves not to take health and life for granted. We don't know the blessing we have til the day we feel cursed. 

Also, this "Pic of the week" series is also here to remind ourselves to just let kids be kids.(That's if you're a parent) The poem below says it perfectly. 

Below are the words of the beautiful poem “Father Forgets”:

Listen, son: I am saying this as you lie asleep, one little paw  crumpled under your cheek and the blond curls stickily wet on your damp  forehead. I have stolen into your room alone. Just a few minutes ago, as  I sat reading my paper in the library, a stifling wave of remorse swept  over me. Guiltily I came to your bedside.

There are the things I was thinking, son: I had been cross to you. I  scolded you as you were dressing for school because you gave your face  merely a dab with a towel. I took you to task for not cleaning your  shoes. I called out angrily when you threw some of your things on the  floor.

At breakfast I found fault, too. You spilled things. You gulped down  your food. You put your elbows on the table. You spread butter too thick  on your bread. And as you started off to play and I made for my train,  you turned and waved a hand and called, “Goodbye, Daddy!” and I frowned,  and said in reply,

“Hold your shoulders back!”

Then it began all over again in the late afternoon. As I came up the  road I spied you, down on your knees, playing marbles. There were holes  in your stockings. I humiliated you before your boyfriends by marching  you ahead of me to the house. Stockings were expensive‐and if you had to  buy them you would be more careful! Imagine that, son, from a father!

Do you remember, later, when I was reading in the library, how you came  in timidly, with a sort of hurt look in your eyes? When I glanced up  over my paper, impatient at the interruption, you hesitated at the door.  “What is it you want?” I snapped. You said nothing, but ran across in  one tempestuous plunge, and threw your arms around my neck and kissed  me, and your small arms tightened with an affection that God had set  blooming in your heart and which even neglect could not wither.

And then you were gone, pattering up the stairs. Well, son, it was  shortly afterwards that my paper slipped from my hands and a terrible  sickening fear came over me. What has habit been doing to me?

The habit of finding fault, of reprimanding‐this was my reward to you  for being a boy. It was not that I did not love you; it was that I  expected too much of youth. I was measuring you by the yardstick of my  own years.

And there was so much that was good and fine and true in your character.  The little heart of you was as big as the dawn itself over the wide  hills. This was shown by your spontaneous impulse to rush in and kiss me  good night. Nothing else matters tonight, son. I have come to your  bedside in the darkness, and I have knelt there, ashamed!

It is feeble atonement; I know you would not understand these things if I  told them to you during your waking hours. But tomorrow I will be a  real daddy! I will chum with you, and suffer when you suffer, and laugh  when you laugh. I will bite my tongue when impatient words come. I will  keep saying as if it were a ritual: “He is nothing but a boy‐a little  boy!”

I am afraid I have visualized you as a man. Yet as I see you now, son,  crumpled and weary in your cot, I see that you are still a baby.  Yesterday you were in your mother’s arms, your head on her shoulder. I  have asked too much, too much.

-W. Livingston Larned
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