Very nicely written account of your ketamine and mushroom experiences.

It takes a lot of courage to embark on this type of journey, and the breakthroughs you've had by embarking on it are profound.

I remember similar "letting go" moments on mushrooms myself and can relate to this internal knowing when the choice is present to go deeper by letting go.

The dispelling of fear association in this regard is huge, and the grounding in the present moment helps with an egoless observer state.

I'm not sure how many travelers of space and time are here, but you're certainly one of them.

Great work brother.