Every day is a new day, unpredictable, and irregular; you never know what is waiting for you tomorrow. You are starting your day hoping for the best but ended up being into a deep mess. You feel heartbroken and sad, maybe devastated but again you gather strength to give a fresh start on a new day. Basic human nature, characteristics.
Our hope keeps us alive, we like to keep faith in ourselves, we trust ourselves, and start over once again after failure. We never give up, our mind, brain motivates us. When we rise and shine, we forget all the hardships and struggles. Every human being struggles, more or less in life. Some go forward to chase their dreams, some deal with their own problems, some dedicate their lives to their family, love ones. No matter how bad our situation might be, we are always hopeful for better days...
Lockdown because of Covid gave me a lot of time to reflect, I was a busy bee and was not ready to accept the lockdown situation so easily. It was like my life stopped and took a pause for a while. I felt like everything stopped when lockdown happened. I am a Covid survivor, that virus somehow caught me and made my life hell. I used to count my days, I used to feel like a living corpse that was waiting for the last breathe.
My body felt like already dead, I was in dilemma whether I am going to survive or not. It was a hard moment, a crucial point of life and death. Have you ever seen death so intimately? I saw. I saw my senseless body, I explored the pain of death. Do you know what kept me alive? My hope of living.
I was begging for my life, I was crying hard inside, just wanted to see another daylight of this world.
My body had completely broken, shattered. What was going on in my mind? I don't know about it, all I know, I wanted to live for another day. I used to want an extra day and I was hoping for another sunrise.
Do you know, when people face such situations in life when they have to fight between life and death, what do they do? You never know until you face it of your own. Some of them want to live and they fight until death and some accept death. It's hard to think about death and the taste of dealing with death is horrible, scary. Nobody wants to taste death if they are not forced to.
But it's the lifecycle of humans, whether you want or not you have to accept death.
~FrenzyFire
