I’ve been feeling off and out of sorts for a couple of weeks now. I’ve had countless mental and emotional outbursts, haven’t been sleeping well and just feel lost.
Not that I want or need to label myself but it clicked this morning, my confidence in myself has just left the building. I feel so unsettled in everything and it’s not a nice feeling, it’s like everything is crumbling around me and I’m floundering to stay out of the black hole.
I’m questioning everything, work, life, family - absolutely EVERYTHING and looking for validation from everyone else, but myself. My initial thought was drop everything and run. I know this isn’t a solution, my problems will still be there, it will just be a in a different setting.
So instead I’m choosing to face them head on and roll with the punches. This isn’t my permanent state, just a phase I have to go through. It’s just exhausting mentally, emotionally and physically. I put so much pressure on myself to be ‘good ebough’ for everyone else, I forget the only person I need to be good enough for is me!!!
I’ll get there, just need to keep smiling and doing what I need to for me.