Fuck pretty much sums it up, if I could that would be the only word in this post. "Fuck. That is all" lol.

Right now for work it is very limited because I don't have a babysitter, because we have Indian (India) people that have started working their way up the ranks and hiring family only. There is a job position as secretary at the small school here but I can't really apply to it if I wont be living here. Its a waiting period for everything really and I hate it. There are funding's to help pay if I struggle but there's also trying to find a place that is big enough for me and the kids and I don't know if I am restricted to where I can live. Good questions for the lawyer.

It makes me sad for the kids, every day they are being put in a situation that both tests me and the kids at this point. It really breaks my heart. I am trying to teach my kids to choose peace or violence, so they know the difference and their dad is just showing them violence. I can't wait for this to be over.

Thank you for your comment and offering to talk. I might take you up on that if I get the chance, I try not to be home as much as possible when he is here.