Overwhelming Heart

A few days ago I wrote an update on how things are going, my heart bleeding withe the situations that arose, constantly hitting a wall.

It takes a bit for me to express as I internalize when things go wrong, shutting everything down.

Well, I have to say, that needs to stop. I came back online a couple days after righting that post, trying to get myself to do some work here, connect again and that was hard. It was hard to push through the emotions, breaking down through the weight that holds me down. I'm glad I did.

It started with getting a reply on my post from @cryptosharon. The reply started with the word "fuck". Yep, there really is no other word that would fit the situation more. It felt nice that someone else outside of the situation gets it. It gave a sense of relief.

Then I got a reply from @nickyhavey. Offering a chance to talk and saying words that are not only encouraging but are also right and precise. With cryptosharon also offering to chat, I then went on Discord and saw that Nicky had sent me a DM asking how I was doing. The conversation that followed lifted more weight off my shoulders, he gave me good advice and .... here I go not having the right words again. That's happening a lot to me lately. He was being a really good friend, one couldn't ask for more or better.

Boop says GINAbot telling me of another reply from @plantstoplanks, Boop another from @fionasfavourites, Boop from @traciyork, Boop from @cheese4ead.

Reading all their comments, replies and willing to share their time and energy with me had me in tears. The support I received during this time is overwhelming my heart, making me feel like I am someone again, not a rag to throw away. These people are my friends, people that I have never met face to face from all over the world opening their hearts. Thats huge!

I struggle to find the right words to show proper gratitude to something as immense as this. The words 'thank you' are too simple and doesn't suffice. No words I carry with me are enough to express how thankful I am, it changes the world for me.

I went from not being able to eat much to properly accepting foods, being sour and annoyed to being able to see the joys and beauty of things, and you all gave me a sense of worth which rebuilt those healthy boundaries once again. Each one of you placed that solid brick.

Because of all of you, I regained strength to continue fighting this fight peacefully. I am going to hold on to all of this, everyday.

To all others reading this post, please support these amazing beings. They are truest of people on this platform. They fight for what they believe in with heart. We can't ask for better people to be in this community

Man, this post, in my eyes, is not a good enough thank you. How can I say it better? With all of my heart and soul, thank you to you all, much love and respect!!!!!!!

Im sorry if this post seems a bit mixed up or if I didn't say enough in it. I think that is from being overwhelmed and also being on a high from all of it.

Je vous aime tous et je vous apprécie énormement! Vous m'aidiez a changer ma vie pour le mieux et grace à vous, je vais y arriver ^_ Je suis gâté pour avoir dens gens comme vous autour de moi. Qu'elle chance que j'ai eu la! C'est ça qui rend la vie aussi beau ^_