Thinking about all of my experiences in dating and how far I've come over the past couple of year of recovery. I've learned to appreciate the things I do for myself.
I am now more observant of all of my actions and how capable I am at making myself happy. I guess I could say I'm more into myself than I am with other people. I guess you can say I'm selfish, but I don't see it that way, I see it as an act of self care.
Now in this stage in my life, If I am to get into another relationship with ANYONE I will require a lot from my partner (whoever it is, that has my attention) if i'm going to make the impossible happen.
1 Passion
If she doesn't feel like this when I am with her (I'm an empath and I will know if you are lying) than I want nothing to do with her. A desire this strong for me can and will strengthen the bond between both me and her. The way in which she looks at me will determine whether or not I will want to stick around a bit longer.
2 Infatuation
If she is feeling like this over me, there is probably nothing I will not do for her. However this must be genuine, I will not be the only one feeling something while she is merely existing next to me.
3 Mutual Interest
This is something that is a MUST. it is rare I approach but if I do, she MUST show some kind of interest as well otherwise I will more likely get over whatever euphoric feeling I am under in a matter of seconds thus forgetting whatever feelings I had in the first place. it will almost be like she never existed and the meeting between us never happened.
4 Longing
If she is not missing me when I am gone (absence make the heart grow fonder), then I have no interest in making her happy at all. However if she IS feeling like this, then that is someone worth keeping around for a very long time. A woman feeling like this will make me want to do more and after seeing my capabilities I am certain that there is nothing I cannot make happen.
