What happens when you abandon the ones that love you? What brings you to the decision to leave everyone behind that has lifted you up when you’ve fallen in the past? What makes you think it’s okay to do what you’ve done? Do you think that your family will be there for you after you’ve betrayed everyone?
“Blood is thicker than water.” Surely, you’ve heard this term before. It’s supposed to mean, family sticks together. Everything has its limitations. With each burn, you add water to that blood. You thin it out until its almost clear. Once you’ve thrown every member of your family under the bus, once you’ve run over them a time too many with betrayals, you’re left to your own devices.
There was a time when the people around you trusted you. They would confide in you, come to you when they were at their weakest, and rely on you in a time of need. Now? Now you’re a ghost of your former self. You’re a stranger to the ones that once called you son, or brother. You were once a bright shining star who everyone thought had a good head on his shoulders. You were going places in life and we were so proud. Now, there’s a shadow hanging over you as you enter the room. The stench of alcohol wafts through the air with your every exhale. The sound of lies buzzes around as you open your mouth to speak to those who are no longer close, but within the same household as you all have been since you were only eight years old.
You called your mother a liar, victim shamed her, and ran to her abuser with open arms. You called your step-father, who has been there since age 8, that everyone in the home is white trash and you’re embarrassed of them. You can’t even look your sister in the eye and tell her that you are mad at her, because you know she will fire back and stand up for your parents. She will not listen to your selfishness and sit back while you destroy the family she loves so much.
You don’t care though. You know deep down they are done. There is nothing more you could do to push yourself further away from them. All that’s left is for you to move in with the guy that you don’t really know and then it’s over. Everything that you all have been through, every memory, every hardship, every victory, it all means nothing now.
They hope you find happiness. They hope you get everything you are looking for out there in a new place, with your new name, with your fiancé that they never knew because you were too ashamed to bring her around. Don’t expect anyone to come to your aid in the future, when that old family is a memory of the past and you’re alone once more.
Goodbye…
