Ah @foxyspirit, I feel for you. This is such a bad space and time. For you. For the world. I don't know what to say other than this:

I am glad you're back and I am glad you're using this as a platform as an outlet. Writing is cathartic - you know it is. When I made a similar decision - now more than 25 years ago: no blogs, no crypto blogs. Just my journal and a pen. Oh, boy, did I write stuff. And your sentence

It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

Lives with me. At that time, it was the hardest thing I'd ever had to do. In the years that followed, there have been other tough ones. That said, it was the hardest and one of the best things I ever did.

Strength to you as you take the next steps in this journey to a new chapter.