Some days I wake up with a heaviness weighing down my whole system. An uncomfortable feeling the moment I open my eyes, and when I do, I often freak out. Because there is no ’reason’ for this particular state. There is nothing that happened that I can pin point it on cuz I JUST woke up from a beautiful sleep. I SHOULD be happy.
Sometimes I can lean back and rest in the not knowing.
Other mornings it’s impossible.
And when that’s the case, one thing that helps the part of me that wants explanations and reasons for why I feel this way, is the reminder that I’m a tapestry of light learning to be in a physical, dense body. A lightbeing, doing the best it can to fit into this temporary vessel of flesh and bone. Because when I’m sleeping, I’m floating in this free form. Travelling unbound through space and time. And when it’s time to come back, it can be quite the shock. The contrast between these two seeming so huge.
So to bridge this perceived gap I’ve started a new practice; While lying in bed in the morning, I remind myself that I am light learning to be in physical form and then I gently touch my whole body while saying; I love you. This relaxes and nourishes me so much. Both worlds are being seen and honored. Anchoring light into earth.
