I want to go back to the place where it all started – the dugouts in Ermakovo. There, for the first time, I felt something strange and connected to this state, which can be described as falling in love. And what if I'm still standing there and the whole picture of what is happening has transformed in front of me? And in a minute I'll open my eyes and find myself back there at the end of July among those dugouts. Maybe there is some kind of portal there?
Or I need to go there again and I will get to the past, at the same time, but I will already know what will happen to me in the future if I continue to be in this state. Then the question arises, will I want to go through all this or not? In any case, if I know about all this, I will act in a completely different way. It's like a butterfly effect. If I already know about the key events, then I won't be able to follow them exactly so that everything works out exactly as it happened.
Here I am writing about it now, imagining these places and again experiencing a burning sensation in my chest. It's even kind of exciting to go to these places again. I understand that most likely the places themselves have nothing to do with it...and if with what? And if there is something unusual in these places? After all, in fact I was there with my self, with myself, and it doesn't matter where I will be next time. And if I go back to places, then I will only experience nostalgic feelings. In general, until I check, I won't know for sure.
It is possible that I am going back to the past and on the way to Ermakovo my wheel bursts. I'm not getting there and none of this is happening, but that's only if the memory of future events is erased.
In general, I decided for a long time and still went. At first I went to the second place, to Ananyino, but I didn't feel anything there at all and immediately left for another one...the third. Everything is different in Sosnovka, there is no magic vibe like in summer. It's cold outside, the lighting is completely different, so I couldn't even find the exact view, that is, the shooting point, for a very long time. But I found many other places and views that created a new code of sensations...maybe not the one I wanted, but it's still there.
In the third place, in Ermakovo, there was something else...some kind of devastation. I went to that very lantern...maybe there's a portal?
But this time nothing happened, and an inner voice suggested that there was no need to look for anything, you just need to wait, do not take any drastic actions and everything will work out.
