As seconds turns into minute,
Minute turns into hours,
Hours turns into days,
Days turns into weeks,
Weeks turn into month,
Month turns into years.
From the rising of the sun
Into the going down of the dawn,
The fear envelopes me the more.
It becomes a nightmare and from nightmare it becomes real.
I can feel it, I eat with it, I smile with it, I sleep with it, I walk with it, I dance with it.
I talk to friends about it, yet still it won’t go away.
It becomes a part and parcel of me.
And then I ask, what fear?
The fear of the unknown,
The fear of rejection,
The fear of betrayal,
The fear of being frustrated,
The fear of making the wrong choice,
The fear of not having a happy ending,
The fear of loving and not loved in return,
The fear of heartbreak,
The fear of being lied to,
The fear of trusting one,
The fear of being cheated on.
Every day I think of how I can take it away but it keeps romancing me the more
The more I try to run away from it, the more it chases me
I don’t know what to do
Who will help me?
Who will comfort me?
Who can see the unknown for me?
Who can tell me what awaits me?
Every day, I go out looking courageous, bold and fearless but inside of me lies fear and weakling.
Every day I tell them “I don’t love because I can’t love and don’t know what love is but inside of me lies a spot full of love and a spot for true love because I know what love is.
That fear of the unknown makes me run away from the world and from love.
I see couples who profess love to themselves, I see couples who decided to take their relationship to the altar to profess their love to the world and I ask WHAT KIND OF LOVE IS THIS? IS THIS TRUE LOVE?
I see couples who their coming together as blessed them with the fruit of the womb and i ask, COULD THIS BE TRUE LOVE?
Every day, I cry inside of me because I want to try it but the heart is not willing to take the risk, how do I go about this?
The fear of the unknown just won’t let me take a step into the unknown.
Who will help me?
