I may have had the same thing as a child, I was mostly beaten and abused. I remember thinking of hanging myself for the first time when I was 8 from the house chimney. Every time I fall in love it seems to subside for a while but I've never truly been in love except with cats and dogs, lastly my beagle and my boys which my ex took both. I never even knew I was abused as a child until the night terrors started and what I was screaming confirmed I was molested as a child, so I have that to deal with now also.

I just feel like my brain is fried between the pills, the lack of sleep, and the new information about my past. I'd love another animal but can't have one at the shelter. I'm in the program until mid-November so once I complete it and move back into a house I plan on getting a puppy and a kitten. I've always had a cat or a dog since I was 3. I agree they are so therapeutic. Thank you for taking the time to read this rambling of mine and give your insight. I need as much feedback as I can get.

Cheers.