I am always on the lookout for the "why?" and in the process come across new perspectives and explanatory models as to why we humans are so conflict ridden. I discovered an author called Paul Shepard, very worth reading. He wrote about something I have already considered as a cause of human conflict, which is not really new, but he tells it in a depth that I find remarkable. Maybe you'll feel like reading:

https://archive.org/details/ShepardNatureAndMadness

In summary, I follow his theory that when we humans left the animal and plant kingdoms and thus our existence as wanderers and hunter-gatherers, we began the difficulties of settling down and cultivating land. Landowners and farmers were the first owners of matter and, according to Shepard, the hunter cultures were gradually forced to abandon their way of life (as there were no militarily organised groups among them). Similarly, later the peasants and artisans were forced into industry as workers.

A key statement of his was that neurosis shapes the city. According to this, city life is probably the most unhealthy form of human coexistence. I agree with that. The alienation from animals and fauna seems to bring people into a deep spiritual emptiness and confusion. The next constraint seems to be that of being one's own human resource, since it no longer really needs many workers, i.e. to make oneself the consummate commodity and consumer of human needs. In other words: artificial labour. the human being who seeks to feed parasitically on himself.

The mega-trend towards veganism as well as the worldwide decline in birth rates and sexually happy people (by which I also mean love and long-lasting relationships) are in retrograde, especially as the baby boomers slowly grow old and begin to die. When I look around my city, I see predominantly a very over-aged crowd. These old people are held in low esteem and they are really only good for being exploited medically, hence the many "patients" and "sick". Just like the many "crazy" and otherwise "to be treated". Yet as modern man cannot really cope with the really crazies he reaches for the normals and treats them as crazy. There are many paradoxes in human existence. A plethora of such obvious contradictions that I wonder why so little is said about them.

Veganism is such a contradiction. If you don't want to eat meat anymore because it comes from factory farming/industry, you would have to set all animals free, but then all humans would have to be set free as well. So that they can hunt, gather and wander the continents unhindered again (without identity papers - LOL). The demand that no animal should be harmed is justified in this respect, but does not resolve the contradiction, because human life is based on the extermination of living beings just as much as all plant and animal life. "Thou shalt not kill", against this background, is a paradox. But you cannot say "You shall not kill without dignity" for it would then be legitimate to kill and stating afterwards that it was a dignified kill. The only way to kill with dignity is to feel sorry for the killed but at the same time worship the resulting death as a gift for ones life AND being in acceptance of being killed oneself within this frame of spirit.

This way of thinking is almost impossible for "civilised", i.e. urbanised people to internalise. Since the less we encounter the Other, the more we fear the Stranger and the Other. Because we do not accidentally encounter large animals in the open, we began to fear them, whereas in times when this could happen at any time, fear must have been low or non-existent (only caution).

Today we fear the smallest of creatures such as spiders, worms and other insects because we have also removed them from our habitats. But there is nothing to be done about it, now we are afraid of the "invisible", the bacteria and "viruses" and transfer anxiety to other people, so that in the end we are only afraid of ourselves, which we have been experiencing in a perfected form for a long time.

Since young girls and boys no longer go through a process of maturation, we remain for the most part underdeveloped human beings who never really seek to put themselves in consciously experienced mortal danger (trauma) in order to achieve the transition to adulthood by this task.

Likewise, we condemn death by accident or chance as "unworthy" and "shocking", when it is the most normal thing in the world for living beings to die by chance. Conversely, this means that death and killing must not occur uncontrolled, but only controlled. But since no one can be responsible for this, since it is impossible to be responsible (because one is not able to control death and dying), but one pretends that this dilemma does not exist and that it is possible to be responsible, a huge paradox opens up.

Old and sick people shall not die, yet they are treated as burdens and nuisances.
Babies and toddlers shall not be harmed, yet they are felt to be burdens and nuisances.
Teenagers shall mature, yet they are being kept away from experiences of danger and challenge.
Up from here, one can extend the conclusions.

To become a free a man or woman one must go on a walkabout, unprotected, to meet the Others, the strangers, to become hungry and thirsty, to become exhausted and desperate. To be insulted in the most rigid way. And to survive it with a freshly gained confidence. In other words: to get out of the dilemma, one shall get into it.

I never dared to do this and so I am under-matured. Though I had glimpses and experiences of life dangers as a young woman and maybe that helped me a bit to get along with males later on.

... Sorry, I totally drifted away from your response to me. But I just have written this all down and now very well put it on its journey :)

Bye, bye so far.