First: I come in peace :)
I made the cardinal mistake of coming from the perspective of my pain in response to an interjection from you. Whenever I encounter such displayed pain myself, I am immediately annoyed or on the defensive. I don't like it when I am offered moralising (in lack of a better term).

So I understand your refusal to address these points of mine. There is this fine act of balancing between earnestness and humour, between what the foolish (me) tries to say to the serious (me) and that you can't be sure who is who.

My view of the eternal dance of the ego around other egos is that I'm in the middle of it and whenever I lose my composure, I reinforce the contradiction I'm trying to expose.

Take this as an offer of my understanding on the light shoulder of existence, which does not want to overlook what weighs heavily, but often fails grandiosely in the effort to articulate it. The fool and the serious come all together the moment both can be sincere.