I hadn't been exactly active in here, have I? Although you could say that there had been Hive activities on my end that randomly popped up - mostly when I needed the money (Yeah, I'm not going to shy away from saying this hahaha), or when I just generally got over the artist block. But in a nutshell, when compared to how my 2020 went, 2021 was rather dry.
To be fair, I wanted to draw so much. There had just been a significant amount of laziness and lack of interest this year, though, and it certainly didn't help that I went through a roller coaster of a year especially in terms of my professional life. My artist (alternative) life had to take the backseat. I am not proud of this hiatus, and I certainly am not happy it had to happen in the first place, but it is a necessity that I felt I needed to heed.
And today...
But I can at least take you on a time machine so that together, we can look back on how my art activities went. At least, those that I actually, actually ended up really liking. I'm sharing here a quick video of artworks I drew this year that became my favorites.
Well, nothing, really. They're simply drawings that I absolutely, absolutely adore. I sometimes look back at them and think to myself, "Damn, I drew these? How?" It sometimes felt like I wasn't capable of doing these drawings, but I managed. And color this cliched, but those moments that I choose to look back at these are magical.
Three of these drawings were literally drawn in January. Thinking about it now, I had so much free time in January, as I was temporarily out of work for the whole month. It was a very stressful month, but drawing three of these were sincerely therapeutic.
And she lives. is definitely at the top of this list, and was drawn in February. While I randomly thought of the idea, it was one of my very rare full-blown illustration (with background and all). I think if I were asked which one is my most favorite 2021 drawing, I'd say Color You Happy.
Every time I read back into what I wrote about it, it just feels different. In color you happy, I wrote the following:
If at some point, you find yourself lonely, it will not hurt to be reminded that some things exist to represent loneliness. And you would perhaps feel a little better because the Earth is fair and naturally gives happy, and you will find them.
In a color.
In a bird.
In a flower.
In a word.
These next four illustrations I love not just because of how they turned out, but because of how I was at the points I was drawing them. I was an oxymoron of passionate dispassionate and dispassionate passionate. I would up returning to how I started - simple portraits - and doing an artwork that severely challenged my very bad attention span (Hide and Seek).
During the half and latter parts of the year, I wasn't just feeling it. I wanted to draw, but didn't want to. Sometimes I end up dreaming about this conflict, and it messed with me more. I definitely don't want to feel this next year - than where art starts feeling like a chore.
Some say we should probably scared. 2022? Sounds like 2020, too. I definitely don't look forward to a repeat of 2020, but I look forward to have similar outlook I have of the arts as I did in 2020. 2021 wasn't bad. But it wasn't good, either. It was dull, but definitely, there were more moments that were beautiful more than the bad.
Thank you for being part of my 2021. See you in 2022!
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