Over and over again, have tried to fight this but it isn't working! 😭 probably I should employ the services of another who this is not their weakness.🤷 Nevertheless, taking a close watch at my mom I found out this was one of the trait I got from her.
Having a soft spot for people is one of my greatest weakness which have tried to overcome but the harder I try the more difficult it becomes. Countless times, have promised myself not to talk to those that have wronged me yet the moment I sight them coming my way from a far the feeling is usually different though the hurt might still be there but a close contact with them would just reignite old time love which makes it difficult playing the hard girl role.
While working at my previous place of work, I lend a colleague of mine some amount of money and when it was time to refund, it became a serious issue for me. For the third time she gave me a date to pay me my complete money but on reaching the date she came up with a story that the money was stolen in her house so I should give her more time to come up with the amount. Out of sympathy I accepted. It never occurred to me she was only telling a sweet lie until another of my colleague said I should go to her house to confirm if it was stolen. On reaching her house, the story her sisters gave me was a whole total vibes. Hearing what her sisters said I was furious like a burning furnace that I had to come to a conclusion to seize her phone, take out her sim card and then give her the balance of the money for the phone so we could part ways. I also told a friend about my plans and she agreed to it. Unfortunately the moment I set eyes on her my heart melted immediately though I didn't speak to her but I never did what I said I would do. The lady that was with was like..... what is wrong with? Nothing was my answer.
I had to exercise lots of patience with her and this particular day she brought half the money to me but then she was in a sober mode and when I asked she said she had short which led to the reduction of her salary. Knowing fully well that the money won't be enough for her I took little out of the money she paid and gave her the rest so she could pay back the following month. The mistake I made was I allowed my emotion ride over me because I later confirmed from our supervisor that she was paid well. The rest of the story is history. Have been trying to play hard so as to cope with this and i hope it works and not end up disappointing myself.
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