I am definitely not who I used to be a few years ago, but I am proud of the woman I am becoming. Life is a journey itself, one way or the other we learn to navigate through it. Whoever made this quote was not wrong when he or she said we are the reflections of the decisions we make.
As a child, the journey was a sweet ride, we had all we wanted, attended one of the best schools and lived a very comfortable life. I remember how my mom would prepare breakfast for us, package our lunch box and still give us some change for the second break after which we would secretly meet our dad and collect extra money and of course we would get more money from him. When it's time for any festive period we get the best out of the best dresses too.😃 This was the life back then and If anyone was to tell me that things will turn south, I am very sure I would argue down to earth with them but like the saying goes if life throws lemon at you, make lemonade out of it. 😊
Before I graduated from highschool, I had beautiful plans and arranged my life the way I wanted it to go but the reality of life struck. And if there is just one thing I appreciate myself so much is that I am not in the category of the lazy ones. I believe I can get it if only I put my mind and focus only towards achieving it. With the help of my uncle I was able to secure a good paying job. That job came with lots of temptation but glad God saw me through. I remember at that young age I experienced my first ever scam and in the midst of paying back the money since it wasn't mine I was left in confusion. I remember my little self sitting on the floor crying when one of my bosses came with an ungodly offer in order to help me pay the debt. From where that strength came from, I can't tell but I saw myself walking out of him without turning back I'd rather work for three months without pay than to bid for something else.
I saw change when I held fast to my beliefs and strive to become a better person of myself, I was open to learn, unlearn and relearn at the same time. I saw purpose and things I thought will never come to pass started happening. It took time but was never denied.
That decision and a lot more in the midst of chaos has shaped my life much more than I can imagine. These decisions have made me stronger. I may not be proud of the girl I left behind (the weaker me) but I am definitely proud of the woman (the stronger me) I am becoming with God's help.
