It's another birthday for me as I coast into my 30s. I struggled to get some sleep last night and think I must've slept for about 4 hours or so. The primary reason being my emotional state with the realisation that another year just passed bye.
Now, it has been a good year by my count, but it has also seen some rather defining changes that have happened. There are some relationships with my Cousins that suffered potentially irreparable damage as a result of a disagreement that started with our mothers. It started three years ago, but this year was when the realization came that the relationship won't be returning to normal.
From an emotional, spiritual and psychological perspective, I am perhaps riding the best wave of my life. That's not to say it has been smooth sailing, but my connections and beliefs seem to hold a lot more substance than I've ever experienced. I've allowed myself to love and built my faith from basically nowhere to what it is now.
There are many concerns and a few regrets as I reflect on not just the past year but the entire life's journey so far. Am certainly not going to pretend like I have no regrets. Yet I do know that the road ahead is still significantly more than that which has been lived. While I will never get the unique feeling of being a young adult ready to take on the World at 20, there is some form of pride and maturity that comes with lived experiences.