Chapter Thirteen
"I don't know am also confused but there is one thing I know, am scared of aborting a baby I don't think I can ever do it" I said crying so hard my face in my palm feeling so stupid of myself.
"Then what are we suppose to do because I don't think we are ready to become parents and secondly people know us as friends,"
"Are you being serious right now,and so I don't care about that Michelle all i know is that I can't abort this baby,"I said raising my voice angrily at him.
"Wait,so are you telling me you are planning to keep the baby? Come on Miriam you know you can't, not now that would affect your studies as well as mine," he said firmly.
"Then you should have thought about that before you poured everything inside me that night,"
"But i thought you knew what to do about it even if i did," he said still pacing
"You know i was in a rush the next morning I couldn't think about anything else," I said my voice weak breaking down in tears again and he came kneeling down in front of me holding my hands.
"Babe I don't think we should be arguing about this,it was both our mistakes all we should think about is a solution i just want you to trust me on this," he said calmly.
"Are you sure Michelle cause am scared I don't want to die from aborting a baby,"I said still crying.
"Miriam stop repeating that okay,we would find some easy way that it won't cause complications just trust me please...... okay,"
"Okay," I said finally agreeing to his words cause I could not stop thinking of the shame and disappointment i would cause at this level of my education,i had no choice but to follow Michelle's idea.
I had an afternoon class and when I was done I wanted to get some cool air, so I decided to go to a small garden close to the library I walked slowly wasn't listening to music this time around I forgot to bring my earpiece to school so I had nothing to listen to except the singing of the birds and rustling of leaves.
I was almost there when I sighted someone already on the bench I didn't think I want a company so I thought of just going straight home.
But then something caught my attention, I could hear it clearly the lady on the bench was sobbing very hard and loud I walked closer and to my amusement it was her again. Why she was crying this time around I had no idea, she wasn't aware of my presence so I opened my bag brought out my handkerchief tapped her gently and handed it over to her.
She was surprised to see me but then she took the piece from me wiping her tears and blowing her nose " Thank you," she said calmly her voice weak.
"You are welcome," I managed to say in kind of a whisper and suddenly standing up she made to leave.
" I'm Tobi nice meeting you I don't really know why you are crying or sad but I just want to assure you it will be alright I mean everything it will surely fall in place ," I said nervously in a rush like i was been pursued.
"Thank you i really appreciate and am Miriam nice meeting you too," she said walking away slowly.
I didn't know why I said those words but I just thought it might help in whatever she was going through "Miriam" nice name I thought to myself as a sweet voice kept ringing in my ear .......did I just think sweet this isn't like me I thought all to myself.
" Shh, girls his coming awwwn his so cute," Josephine said in a whisper blushing,
" Cute but rude,i hate the whole lot of rude guys," Rebecca replied making a face.
I glanced up to see who the girls were gisting about among themselves keeping their voice in the Whispers then I saw it was him. The guy from the other day in the garden who said his name was Tobi this was not the first time I was hearing comments about him because we were in the same class but then he was too silent to get noticed.
But most of the people in our class said he was rude because his parents are rich some said he keeps himself because it belongs to a bad gang so many comments about him but one thing about him that attracts the ladies. was his looks although is very cute type but I never get attracted to him before he came up to me that day in the garden maybe because I believe cute guys are Playboys.
But then he was nice to me and his words that day actually consoled me a little. The girls was still talking in whispers when he walked pass and suddenly I heard his voice.
" Hi Miriam right," he said and I turned to answer.
" Yeah hi how are you doing", I asked
" Am fine I just wanted to ask if you feeling much better after the other day,"
" Sure thanks i really appreciate", I said sincerely.
" Always welcome," he replied and turned going his way and suddenly when I turned i heard the girls scream behind me.
" OMG, Miriam did he just talk to you wow I can't believe this," Josephine said looking so stunned.
" Wow that's nice,i wonder how you get to know each other the guy never walk with ladies talkless of speaking to them," Jumoke said,
" Then I guess I should count myself kind of lucky," I replied making a whatever face cause I wasn't in the mood for their gossips.
The exams were over this time around I was planning to go to ikeja to spend the vacation but then Michelle told me to come over to his place on my way home so I packed my things and headed to Michelle's apartment first.
When I arrived at Mitchell's place I met chioma sitting on the couch my friend had come to open the door for me we just greeted each other briefly. Mitchell said he was going to get us a drink but his crazy girlfriend of her to go so he left her and sat beside me on the chair.
"You didn't tell me she was here I wouldn't have come," I said as soon as she was out of the living room.
" She arrived minutes ago and I couldn't send her out you know,"
"Alright so what about the pill," I asked and he handed me a small nylon.
" Just two pills oo don't use more than," he said
" Okay," I said and sighted Chioma coming with drinks i changed the conversation but she was still staring at the both of us suspiciously, I took the drink and after few minutes i left for ikeja.
I got home safely exchanged plesentries with the family and went to my room that was about take off my clothes, it was aching badly I held the pain at first but then I could not take it anymore.
I was struggling on the floor I noticed I was bleeding, I didn't remember been on my menstrual period. Still crawling I managed to open the door planning to crawl all the way to the living room.
Luckily for me Tolani came out ,I was already groaning in pain seeing things in double blood all around I was growing weak but I heard my sister calling my parents then I heard my mother's voice she was crying and screaming I heard the word hospital but the words they were saying didn't make much sense to me.
I was in so much pain daddy carried me and just like that my eyes wasn't on my side, I wasn't ready to die not now I still needed to ask for forgiveness of my sins but I can't whisper even a word until I felt my eyes and every part of me shutting down to rest.