Wordy Wednesday Part 2

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I was reminiscing today on the last decade and what has transpired through those years. The one thing that remained consistent throughout was change. There was a lot of it. Both around and within me as well as caused by me.

For a very long time I didn't deal with drastic changes very well at all. It unsettled me and left me feeling as if I wasn't on solid ground. I wanted everything to be set, structured, monotonous and routine because it gave me a feeling of security and control in knowing that exactly the same thing would take place - day in and day out. The strange thing about life is that when you don't want change, you can trust that it will show up, whether you fight it or not. The other interesting thing about having that viewpoint is that you don't actually allow yourself much room to expand or grow.

I remember as a teenager wishing certain things would change, I remember in my 20's hoping things would never change. Funny how much we can chop and change without realizing it until years later.

I'm not sure what it was exactly that changed my outlook on change itself. Maybe I simply matured to a point where I can acknowledge and accept the inevitable - everything is constantly in a state of flux and we will drive ourselves insane trying to resist the universal way of things. Better to simply allow it, embrace it even and change your attitude from "it's a problem" to "it's full of possibilities" instead.

So while I don't think that I would classify myself as a bird (other than the fact that I am indeed a woman), I don't think that I'm really an egg anymore. I'd like to think of myself as growing into something that can hopefully not stay grounded and flightless and that will one day take off into the sunset towards a distant horizon.

I'm still learning to accept change but every little bit of control that I let go of, that I detach from, feels like I'm loosening a noose of my own making. It feels like freedom and adventure. It feels like I'm not shackled to one particular place or one particular fate in my mind and that there are many quests to still be had.

It's quite an exciting thought...that I still have so much growth ahead of me, that I can one day become any bird I damn well choose to be.

So even though I'm not an egg anymore, I'm still growing my feathers and learning to sing, all the while watching that horizon and knowing that one day I'll take full flight and it will be a beautiful transformation, but only if I allow the myself the choice to change.

What do you think of this quote and how have you dealt with change in your own life? Do you take it as it comes or push against it? What was the biggest change you ever experienced?

Feel free to tell me in the comments.

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