A bright morning ready to accompany my new day. The chirping of the birds made my spirits to be more encouraged. Today is Saturday. Yes, this is what I always wait for. One day that is always waiting for me in a week. He. Yes, that man. A handsome, adult male who lives far above me. I'm just an ordinary high school student who falls in love with my guiding teacher. Strange is not it? Very! I myself had thought, if the story that I experienced at this time only occurs in the drama sinetron.
I always assumed, it is impossible for a student to fall in love with their own teacher. That's too weird. But I think I have to swallow my perception. I do not know since when did this feeling really come up. Obviously this intriguing feeling has now become my loyal friend. In fact, almost every night I always imagine the silly things I do with her.
I realize, adrift 10 years is not an easy thing. I'm only a high school student still in transition. Where is He? 27 years is no longer the time to find a girlfriend. Yes, I know, he will definitely be looking for a life partner. Not just lovers like teenagers like me.
"That's it!" I yelled as I heard the doorbell ring. Exactly at 14.00. I thought. He always came on Saturday to give me private lessons. One year I have this private lesson. And one year I keep my races tight. Do not know until when.

My feet stepped quickly toward the door. My heart always beats faster every time like this time I face. The thought of his smile had made me out of control. My hand grabs the door handle and pulls it away. "Afternoon, sir," I said lightly, sucking in a smile. Ah right? My heart must now be partying in there. Causes strange faint vibrations.
"Afternoon, Risa."
"Let's come in," I said. I let it go ahead of my step. Mr. Roby, I used to call him.
"How are you doing this afternoon, Risa? Are you ready to study with me again? "
"Si ... ready, sir."
Ah shit! Why also Mr. Roby should show the smile. The deadly smile that again adds to my heartbeat frequency.
"Let's start from ..."
Ah 3 hours has passed. I snort a bit, why time has to pass so quickly? Can not he repeat every second he just passed? When Roby's pack is clearing out the gear, my eyes are inseparable from every detail of his movements. I do not want to miss a bit. Because I have to wait another week just to see every curve of that face. Time is too long for me. Yes, I realize sometimes falling in love does make a person become excessive.
"Em, this afternoon there's an event?"
I gasped. What was? He asked me something. Suddenly I feel nervous. "No sir. What is it?"
"I want to take you out for a while, can you?"
"Can sir can!" I replied quickly.
I moaned at my stupid behavior just now. Can not I just hold back a little of my passion? I think it's upset. I heard him laugh. Ah laugh it always makes me want to smile. "Haha usual aja times. Yes, yeah. "
I followed him in the back. Several times I took a breath to regain my heartbeat. Ah the man. Mr. Roby asked me to go with him. A possible impossibility. Want to feel right now I also shriek at anyone just to say, I'm Happy!
Now I'm standing in front of an artificial lake located in the middle of a city park. No! no! This is not the place I'm thinking about right now. But who am I with here. Mr. Roby, my guidance teacher, the man who has seized all my heart.
"What are we doing here, sir? Any additional lessons you want to love? "I asked.
I heard Mr. Roby laugh. "Haha baseball really. You tuh yes, if I should be with the lesson? "
I looked away. "Yes, you are my teacher. It must be a lesson. "
"But what a teacher can not say about outside the lesson? Heart problems for example? "
I froze. The last sentence I heard really made my heart out of control. What does it mean? What does Roby want to tell her about her 'nominees'? Or, or He wants to talk something I've been feeling? Do you think Rob Rob also feel it? Ah! What the hell am I. I think I'm hoping too much.
"Em yes a bit weird anyway. But if anyone wants me to tell me, I'm ready to listen, sir. "
"I fell in love with you."
I jumped. My whole body froze. My brain wandered in search of the obvious meaning of a sentence that had just passed through my eardrum. I gasped. There's nothing I can do right now besides enjoying my heartbeat.
"Max ... ud Father?" I asked reassuringly. Trying to repeat to make sure that what I heard was not just my fantasy.
"Yes, I know this is very bad. A teacher who fell in love with his own pupil. Hm but this is the reality. I fell in love with you."
"Ta ... but why? I'm just an ordinary high school kid. And ... Father is definitely looking for a wife, not a boyfriend. "
"I'll wait for you until you're ready to stand in the aisle with me."
Ah! Again I had to swallow. I do not know how many times, which obviously my tongue really feels like a bum. I want to ask anyone to wake me from my beautiful dream right now! Ah please, I do not want to dream too far!
"Hey, what's up? Are you embarrassed if you have to go out with me? "
I quickly realized. "Eh enggak sir. I, I want to, sir. I also fell in love with you, "I said shyly. I lowered my head to cover the hue that felt on my cheeks.
I was startled when I felt a hand around my body. What else is this? Mr. Roby hug me? Aaahh really I want to scream now. Now I realize, this is not just a fantasy. My waiting for a year was not in vain. The strange story in the soap opera was actually there.
One year my relationship continues. And from that day on, I always appreciate every second of my time. Never let me let it go. Because at every second of that, Mr. Roby always faithfully accompany me. Being next to me whenever I need. And today, is the historic day of my life. Exactly one hour ago, my high school graduation announcement was announced. And I graduated. I am very happy. Soon a college degree would be me. Ah imagine it just made me impatient.
I want to tell Roby soon. Ah yes, since our relationship runs, I no longer call him as Pak or Father. But I saw no sign of the man's arrival. He promised to pick me up.
Ah maybe that, I saw a black porsed car that was speeding toward me. I watched in silence. Ah right, the man came down from the driver's door. I developed a smile as he was walking toward me.
"Hi."
Ah what is that? He did not answer my greeting? Only a thin smile that he torehkan. I sighed, felt something different.
"Why are you?" I asked.
"There's something I want to talk about. Sit here. "
I obey. Occupying an iron chair not far from where I waited.
"Who are you?" I asked when I realized that Roby was not alone in his car. From outside the glass I can already see the veiled woman who was sitting quietly in there.
"You already know that Mamah I never agree with our relationship?"
I paused. My feelings suddenly uncomfortable. I'm afraid something bad will happen. I nod my head off.
"Our age difference never allows us to unite, Sa."
"Continue?" I urge for an explanation.
"I will soon marry Him."
Ah right! I closed my eyes tight. Grasping my gray skirt. Shortness and pain. The two words that now rumble in my heart. Suddenly all the happiness that I felt just disappeared. Replaced a taste I never imagined. I cry. I do not care what the response is. I just wanted to show that everything is not easy for me.
"Do you want to marry him? Why?"
"She's my first love. The woman I always dreamed of when I was in college. "

I took a deep breath. Forcing the air to enter my chest cavity that is getting congested.
"Since when?"
"Three months ago. Three months already I am her official fiancée. "
"Unbeknownst to me?"
"I do not want to hurt you."
"But now you are much more painful me !!" I panted hard. My tears welled up. I do not care about the cynical look of passersby.
"Sorry."
"Get out of my way now."
"I beg your pardon ..."
"GO THROUGH I HAVE BEEN NOW !!" I shouted.
After making sure the man was no longer with me, I lowered my head. Leaving tears flooding my face. Lucky not long rain down the earth. Disguise tears continuously flowing. Hurts. The man I have striven for, now leaves the wound. I think today will be the happiest day, but the reality is wrong. All seemed to turn. I give up. I no longer want to enjoy the beauty of love after knowing the pain of pain.
