God's light is always in you sis, and He is with you as well. It is a sort of refining that you've gone through; through the fire and come out the other side. You may not 100% realize just how much stronger this has made you. The joy you mention; being more intentional-I love that you are looking at it and feel it that way. The peace we are given after the fire, is without description and His joy comes with the morning.

May you continue to find your peace in Him and your joy as well. Love ya sis! 🤗🌹😘😍❤️ !LADY !HOPE !INDEED !PIMP !BBH