Having child, somehow makes you have the most happiness and fear at the same time.
One of my fears its death.
My illness which i have almost 2 years, haven’t yet to be cure until today. Its makes me easy to have panic attack and depressions about my illness and death.
I’m afraid that I have no a lot of time with my children, I’m afraid I couldn’t watch them grown up and be with them through all their stage of life.
I’m afraid GOD punishments since I realize I have so many sins.
The demon, keep whispering in my mind about this fear.
Every day for the last 1,5 years.
After watching miracle season, I realize that we can’t avoid death.
Death its Gods plan and no one can’t change it.
So, the best we can do is be friend with it and do the best thing we can do.
The best for our self and be the best for people who we love.
And it all start with smile.
Pure smile from our pure heart.
Be strong mom,
Be brave,
Believe in GOD, like always.
And smile
09 September 2018
Sunday, 8.29 am
