Something that drives me crazy about myself, is that I should have already learned this lesson. In fact I did after each death I've experienced,.and for awhile each time I was very clear on the temporal nature of this place. But somehow, while I'm still aware of it, the urgency, the poignancy fades. Covid was a reminder, though I didn't lose anyone to the virus itself. Still the potential looming certainly brought it back. It's not that I forget, I have a very long memory, it's just the emotional connection to the thoughts fade and I get caught up in the mundane. Though to be fair to myself the experiences have had a lasting impact, a growth and maturity. And maybe we're just not meant to be constantly evolved. Perhaps it takes away from the magic of each experience if we're always sitting with past ones.