Hello, Hivers, It’s me again dougnahhh back with another blog series. You may have noticed it’s been a while since my last post. It's because during that time, my life has been full: juggling work commitments and sometimes caring for my grandfather, whom I've been worrying about so much, whose declining health I've shared updates about in previous entries.I now have some very sad news that my grandfather peacefully passed away last June 28. It’s difficult, but I wanted to share this with you all, as you’ve been part also of our journey as I've been sharing his health condition these past months.
Over the past month, I've been sharing an update here in my blog about my grandfather’s health as we've been staying with him in the hospital for 2 weeks or more than 2 weeks. We were force to discharge my grandfather because he refused surgery. He kept saying he was too old and couldn’t go through such a procedure, worried he might not survive it and we had no choice but to respect his decision even though it was heartbreaking and we want him to fully recover and sadly, I want to let you all know that he passed away in the last week of June. Our feelings of his loss are not overwhelming it’s truly very painful to face the days ahead without his presence.
He was not just our grandfather but a wellspring of warmth, wisdom, and many stories to tell. We always remember how he’d recount tales of our childhood, his laughter filling in our rooms or our home and the way his voice would soften whenever he spoke to the family. Those moments make our lives lively, and we will continue to remember them. His laughter was when he told us our childhood adventures or the way his eyes lit up when he told a family story. I feel blessed to carry those memories with me or with us and will continue honoring his spirit in everything we do.
After my lolo was discharged from the hospital, we eventually thought he was getting better, but unfortunately, his condition started to worsen. He became absolutely bedridden unable to stand and sit up or move around on his own. It was heartbreaking to see such a strong man we know lose his mobility so suddenly.A week after he came home, he lost his appetite slightly. He stopped eating rice and other solid foods and for that time he was only drinking milk but just a little. We tried different ways to encourage him to eat so that he won't become weak, but nothing seemed to work on it.After a few weeks, he even began to drink less milk compared to the first week that he was discharged, and his weight significantly decreased. This made him grow even weaker. Day by day, his strength became weak, and we noticed his body getting thinner. He lost a noticeable amount of weight, and he seemed more tired and fragile than ever before we even forced him but he didn't lessen.It’s been very painful for our whole family to watch him go through that situation and especially knowing how active and cheerful he was back then. We continue to care for him and do everything that we can to keep him comfortable and cared for, but seeing his health surrender like this has been truly difficult for us.
I think another reason for the cause of my grandfather’s death was the chronic undernourishment. Because as I said the statement he wasn’t eating enough food and nutrients also, his body first used up a little bit of fat and then he began breaking down muscle and his vital organ tissue was not having that energy, leading to progressive muscle wasting to make it overall weakness. His immune system became weak that is why, and also his body tissues were exhausted. He efficiently became weak and defenseless, unable to fight against or recover from his sickness.
Maybe everything really truly happens for a reason. Our dear Lolo might have been carrying pain that he has had for a long time quietly, without even letting us know earlier, maybe because he was shy or didn’t want to worry us huhu. It hurts to lose him, but there's also a side that at least now he’s free from the pain he kept hidden for us. Rest well, Lolo. We will miss you lo our bonds and everything about you we will miss. Your memory will last forever here in our hearts.
That's it for now, Hivers. Life may not always go as planned, maybe? But even though, let's just accept that this is just the way it is sometimes. Each day remains a blessing.
